It has happened. The most celebrated scientist of all time - Einstein - who’s name is synonymous with intelligence has been proven wrong. The neutrinos in Cern travelled faster than the speed of light. One of the keystones in science, the theory of relativity, should now be questioned.
The naive belief in great scientists, celebrities, presidents is not to our advantage. We are all human, and are therefore subordinated to make mistakes.
—A surrendered heart
At the moment
I’m just the girl on the bleechers. But soon - I will rise,
Step down and enter the field. And once I play,
I win. Why?
I’ve watched you
and learned. Learned
your naive predictable moves and therefore; how to crush you.
Last time I wrote about making choices, but when it all boiles down to it, you will always follow your heart. If you don’t, you will parish in the fire and ice of anguish.
Then what is this heart? Not the one pumping your blood, but your inner self. When you follow your heart you can’t help smiling after a while. It feels easier to walk and get up in the morning. You’d rather go outside and live your life instead of fleeing your reality in the fiction of TV.
When you follow your heart you feel hopeful about the future and excited to be there when it comes. You feel like you belong, like you are in the right place at the right time.
I just followed my heart.
Decisions, you make them everyday. When you decide what to wear, what to eat, where to go, what to do, and so on. We are privileged in todays society with a big amount of freedom. I love the substantial freedom of choice we possess, but right now I am having trouble deciding, and the anxiety that awakes is like no other. I can’t decide even though I know I have to, and by not choosing I am not choosing anything and that leaves me with nothing. But I can’t let one thing go. I need someone to tell me what to do.
I don’t want to chose.
—Charles Hecklebee
Pictures, words, places and people. A newspaper, a television. Another cup of coffee. A building. A wall, bricks, weathers - changing. A smile, a teardrop, a hick-up. Water - in bottles, in kettles, in oceans, inside you. Holding a hand, a hand holding you down. The world fell asleep, you stayed awake, or did you not wake up? Walking in your mind - imagining. Constant distant pain, sudden piercing pain - passing. Rhythms creating movements in you, muscle tension, relax, trance.
Definitions, learning them, connecting words with actions, body parts, dividing, multiplying, connecting events. Act as predicted. Follow a pattern. Refer to a source - not yourself. Read books, not writing your own. Mimic, imitate, follow ones footsteps - safety. Unknown - unpredictable, fear, danger, spontaneous, insanity.
Lost between cultures, in cities. Traveling, moving, packing, getting away. You always live with yourself. Escaping yourself - possible?
Organisation. Struktur. Schema. Rutiner. Ord. Raka linjer. Papper på hög. Penna. Bläck. Telefoner. Fönster. Solljus. Skuggor. Markis. Lockigt. Skinn. Trä. Årslinjer. Lådor. Grön. Gul/ Beige. Redaktion.
I am walking in circles.
Deja vú is when your mind tries to tell you that you should make some changes in your life.
